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| Objects of DesireI Of course, a woman's body is an object of desire, but it is not the body itself which is desirable; rather, the idea of desire anticipated in the body enthrals. When just the body of a woman is given, it's very availability sometimes leaves him cold. He sees, touches, tastes, smells, hears that body, enters and re-enters it at will; fondles, manipulates, even hurts it, attempting to extract some pleasure or comfort yet it yields nothing--no joy, no solace, no peace, no satisfaction. He wonders where he went wrong, what he did or didn't do. The body in his arms is incomprehensible, itself puzzled over its inability to attract or arouse. It is only when the body dissolves, ceases to be mere flesh, but is transformed into a figure of Eros, that the sleeping senses are aroused, like flares in a dark night; then, the boundaries between two beings are banished, making both an interplay of passion and prayer.
II from an object of desire i’ve turned—into a desiring subject. but if you think i’ve directed my mad medusa stare to chill your male gaze you’re mistaken. look into my eyes carefully. they’re not focussed on you, nor do they invite you into the frame, offering rare pleasures, unknown adventures; i neither wish to tempt nor turn you to stone. beyond you lies another horizon far more profound and clear, where even the seagulls do not go, where sky meets the sea and the grey earth mates the white mist; there i’ll venture before you and flow in such secret splendour that my desire will shimmer over the waters or speckle the sky with little stars, gently shining in the distant gloom. |
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